A Poem to whatever veiwer wishes to read

"Forgotten" by:Alexandria Sekella

Living in this world confused and lost,
You never know where to turn just that you need to,
But what happens if you miss that turn,
what happens if you walk past that path where life gives you perfect?
Where eveything is right,
Where it is all what you want and never regreting...

I've missed that turn more then once,
I've forgotten to look,
I've forgotten that perfection...

The beautiful look of those eyes,
The sweet sound of your forgiving voice,
The warm touch of your golden lips,
I've forgotten it all...

My cold fingers running through your silky brown hair,
The sweet whispers you leave in my ear,
Your comforting hand running along my back,
A passionate kiss that never ends,
The sparkle in your eye when you smile,
I don't remember...

I refuse to remember,
I refuse to look,
I refuse to seek deep down inside me the feelings I had,
I refuse to think...

"But your smell, it's like a drug to me,
My own personal brand of heroin,"
Your bare skin against mine,
It's a dream I wish to have,
Your soft fingers brushing against every part of my body,
A feeling I miss...

I wish to forget,
But I've never forgotten...

"Disappointment"

we dream of having this perfect relationship,
one where no one is in our way,
we trust in eachother,
care for eachother,
believe in eachother,
and love one another.

but one of us makes the mistake of believing they could ever b happy,
missing out on the opportunity they knew they should of taken,
praying each night to take everything back,
living in the past when they know they need to except heartbreak once and for all
but cant seen to look up...

i watch everyone around me be happy,
while i watch the one person i never want to lose walk away,
as i sit and watch her take my place,
fill in the piece of your heart i wish to keep,
but lost in my own stupity,

your like my long lost best friend,
my soulmate that i cant keep,
the guy in dreams who is always there,
my night in shinning armor but lost to the fairy princess,

he's gone and i'm lost for words....
maybe one day she'll make it up to him


"A Final Goodbye"

Thinking of what to say to you right now is hard. My feelings are more confused then I even am. I don't know what to say to you, or how you want me to say whatever you want me to say to you. I wish I had a poem to come up with to express my feelings, and emotions. I wish I knew what you were thinking or what you feel.... But i dont know. i dont know how to love you... i just know i do, i dont know how to hold you and never let go... i just know i want to... i dont know when i made these decisions... i just know i did... and i know through thick or thin, on heaven or earth, may death do us part, your my best friend... when you hurt, i hurt. when you cry, i cry. when your happy, i'm happy. But when you make a decision, i give you the respect you deserve and respect your decisions. i'm a screw up, never have i down something right, not once have i laid in bed and thought of something i did that made a difference in the world, when the world crashed to my feet, you still loved me, when i would do horrible things, you still believed in me, and when i put you through horrifying pain you still loved me. dont... please dont love me, please dont let me ruin your life, please i cant b apart of you, i cant... i cant hurt you any longer, i cant watch you fall for me anymore, my heart is torn between. i want you laying next to me in my bed, i want you holding me in your arms and i want you loving me, but i cant, im not good enough for your presence and im not good enough to have your heart. My Love, before these tears worsen i must say goodbye, these are my final words to you, :I Love You: take these words and use them as you want, but i ask one thing of you, dont ever forget me, always remember i'll be watching over you, i'll be your guardian angel standing in your shadow, your protector...


"Wake up!"

i lost the person i thought i cared for more then anything
now i feel lost with no purpose in this world
but reality says ill b fine
ppl act like they know my pain
one of those been there done that situations
ha ya right

i let him walk right out of my life
i didnt stop him
i didnt try holding him back
i just didnt
i should of woken up
looked around myself and done whats right...