The Forbbiden Hapost (started)(closed)

I held her to me. I was so tempted to kiss her, but didn't.

i felt the hot tears running down my face. great. just what i need. a sobfest in mark's room., i thought to myself. once i started crying i didnt stop until i had cried myself to sleep.

I let her cry, whispering comforting calls to her. Once she fell asleep, I whispered "I love you."

in my sleep my legs and arms wrapped around mark. but i didnt sleep peacefully for long. i always had bad dreams when i cried myself to sleep.

I smiled as she wrapped her arms and legs around me. I heard her stirr and stroked her hair.

it was like i was falling like alice from alice in wonderland. just falling. only i had it worse. all of the faces i knew were on the walls and as i fell i had to look at all of them.

"Rose, " I repeated, shaking her gently. "Wake up."

the dream sped up....the last face was mark's..... he was looking at me in such a loving way...he had always been there for me.....never asked for anything in return.......and it hit me like a lightning bolt....it was because he loved me...... my eyes opened.

"Nice to meet you Em" I said, continuing to make my record "Really? when?" I asked

"earlier this morning I saw you turn into an animal"I whispered the last word into his ear

I smiled at her. "Are you okay?"

I stiffened "Really.." I muttered, unsure on what to say.

( where is every one and who can I talk to)

"How long?" I asked hoping that he'd know i was asking how long hed been in love with me.

(just work on a project and talk to em.)

( ok thanks)

" hey em I said coming up to her and who is this I asked gestering to the new guy."

I looked down. "How did you figure out?"

"I just figured it out...when i was asleep......your face was the last one i saw before i opened my eyes...... how long mark?" i said it all softly.......how could i have been so blind.......

"Too long. Since third grade." I whispered, playing with her hair.

"how could i have been so blind?......"

I hugged her. "I tried to hide it."

i hugged him back. "why?" i asked softly...

"I didn't want to ruin our friendship." I rubbed her back. "I love you so much."

it felt good to hear him say that but I didnt know how I felt......

(bbs. i g2g eat. ill still look online but im eating diner. bb asap.)

((Kay))

I looked at her. "Where does this leave us?"

(back)

" i dont know....... what should we do?" he knew id never had a boyfriend...