torn between 2 loves (open)

"No, wake u-up!"I said as I tried to wake him.
"You c-cant sleep r-right now"I said

"N-No. Stay a-awake.."I begged him.

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I looked at Sam.
"What do you need to tell me?"I asked.

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"I'm in love with you Lacy, your the only girl i want, i've been in love with you since we met in elementary school, i never wanted any other girl, i've only wanted you and when i get better, i wanna ask you something"

My face got red and I felt breathless.

He wanted me to speak.
I took a deep breath, not sure what to say.
I loved sam, but I loved jacob to.
I couldent chose between to two.
"I...I...."I sighed, I couldent speak.

I looked at him,
Then at Jacob.
"I love you sam,I love Jacob to though, and I don't want to chose.."I said.
I got up.
"Don't make me chose..."I whisperd as I ran upstairs and into the washroom.
I locked the door, and fell on the floor crying,

I sobbed.
I saw some broken glass.
I grabbed a piece,
I sliced my wrist, again and again,
I felt dizzy from blood loss but I kept cutting.
"I love you both!"I screamed each time I cut myself.

I carved Sam's name into my wrist,
Then cried.
I carved jacobs name into my other wrist then cried.
I would never chose one,

I was so upset,
I couldent chose one without hurting the other.
I filled up the sing with water,
I was going to kill myself.
I put my face in the water

"I want to die..I could never hurt either of you"I said as I went back and put my face in the water.

I pulled sam away from the railling.
"Don't you dare, I can't chose, I love you both.. I can't chose.."I said.
I cut my wrist deeply.