torn between 2 loves (open)

I sat up and sighed.

"I feel bad for leaving you alone.."I say.
"If I hadent we'd be at home..."I say softly

"Its not your fault"I say.
I smile at him softly

I sigh.
"Don't be jealous...."I say softly.
I put one finger under his chin and turn his face so he is looking at me.
I bring my face inches away from his.
"I'm in love with you Sam..... I'm going to get married to you and were going to have children and it will be the best....I fell for you...a very long time before I met jacob... And I will always love you baby.. You should knoq that.."I say softly.
I look into his eyes as I speak

"Whenever your ready" I say softly.
"And ours kids wiont be scary, they will have your good looks and brains, and they will have my hair colour and eyes." I say softly.
I giggle.
"We don't have to have kids if you don't want sam."I say softly.
I kiss his cheek gently

"I know" I say.
I smile.
I nurse came in and got me to sign some papers and said we could leave when we were ready.

"Take your time" I say sweetly.

I laugh.
"I'm gonna make you whatever you want for dinner tonight"I say sweetly.
I wasent going to mention that today was his birthday.
I smiled at him

I smile.
"Whatever you want" I say.
I get up from the bed.
I walk over around the other side of the bed and help him out of the bed.
"Were gonna go to my house for a bit." I say with a smile.

"We will think of something.."I sigh.
I start walking with him.
"So you didn't have anything important today?"I asked him.
How could he forget his own birthday

I smiled.
He was remembering.
"Maybe its an annual thing" I say, giving him hints

"Not yet, a bit before christmas, its a special day, we each have our own.." I hinted