Never Say Good Bye

Sirens.

That's the first thing I heard once my eyes had opened,the smell of burnt skin surrounded me as I looked around through the smoke I spotted my father,his usual bright blue eyes glazed over with death . As I coughed softly I felt pain shoot through my side, I sucked in a sharp breath as I slowly turned my head to see my brother his chest rose and fell but his eyes remained closed.

Coughing again I looked over at my mother who was moving slightly,slowly I leaned over and whispered,"Mom?" she looked at me her breathing very shallow as she offered me a weak smile.

"Hey..." She barley whispered her breathing became deep as she talked. Her eyes slowly began to close as I took her hand in mine to keep her awake. Which worked , her eyes opened slightly again as she gave me another weak smile,"I can't keep my eyes open baby girl.. not for long.."

Tears began to run down my cheek as I shook my head,"You have to mommy for me,please keep them open for me."

She shook her head,"I can't.... " she gave my hand a small squeeze," I love you... " she whispered as her eyes fell closed shortly after her breathing slowly came to a stop.

I started to sob which made my chest hurt like hell,slowly I moved my head to the side to look out the window to see police cars and a fire truck along with an ambulance,I heard people shouting.. the last thing I remember doing was reaching over for my brother's hand and holding onto it tightly before my world went black again...

Looking up at the blue sky I let out a shaky breath, the memory still vivid in my mind I slowly lowered my eyes,as the preacher's voice carried on through the silent Sunday afternoon. Looking at both my parent's coffins I bit the inside of my cheek to keep myself from crying right here.... and right now. It was not the time or the place for crying I had to be strong for everyone,for my worker that stood beside me,for my parents,and especially for my older brother Bryan who laid in hospital bed in a coma. I just had to be strong for everyone.

As the preacher came to his finally words I stepped forward and placed a white rose on both my parent's coffins before I stepped back. Slowly everyone started to leave, I heard a few family member's whisper somethings to me that sounded like,"Sorry for your loss.." but I didn't utter a single word as they all cleared out. When it was just me and my worker,Miss.Anne she set a hand on my shoulder and lead me towards the car. I was to numb to say or do anything but follow. As we got in the back seat somewhere in the back of my mind I heard her say something to the driver before she looked at me with sad,kind eyes," Ready to meet your new family?"

Slowly I looked at her as I pulled myself out of my old memories as what she said sunk in, a new family.. a new life.. the words repeated in my head but I just slowly nodded. But if I was to speak the truth I wasn't ready for a new family at all... or a new life, I just wanted my old one back. I wanted my mum and dad and older brother back. But I knew that was impossible so I kept my mouth shut.

As I felt the car pull away from the curb I looked out the window and watched as the graveyard slowly disappeared from view as we turned the corner. As we drove through my old town,where I had grew up most of my life I thought about all the memories and my friends , they were all gone now it now wasn't just my parents or even my older brother but it was my whole life that was gone now. I leaned my head back and closed my eyes, my old life is gone and I'm being hauled off into a new one, one I didn't want... or so I thought I didn't want at the time.





Sometime during the car ride I must have fell asleep, because the next thing I know Miss. Anne is shaking my shoulder lightly as she whispers my name," Lainey .. Wake up now we're here."

As my eyes flutter open I look around,it was a nice neighbor.. nicer then my old one. As I slowly sat up I rubbed my eyes as I asked," Where is here exactly?"

Miss.Anne smiled," In the town of Evansville," she answered," three hours away from where you use to live."

I nodded then crawled out of the car,looking at the house that we had parked in front of I grabbed my duffel bag from the back seat and shouldered it. Slowly I began to walk up the pathway behind Miss.Anne, here goes nothing, I thought as she rang the door bell.

Slowly the door opened to reveal a very beautiful woman who seemed to be in her mid forties with dark brown hair that was cut short,and blue eyes that look like the ocean on a bright summer's day. Giving Miss. Anne a small smile she said," Hello Miss.Anne..."then her eyes shifted towards me and her smile grew a bit bigger,"and you must be Lainey,welcome dear."

I nodded shyly as I shifted, I always have been a bit uneasy with strangers. The woman inside the door way opened the door wider.

"Come in you must be freezing standing out there!"She exclaimed as she ushered me and Miss.Anne inside.When I stepped into the main hall way I looked around, it was really homey, pictures covered the walls that lead down the hall way as the stair case was right there by the door,and the living room was a bit away from the door while the kitchen was right at the end of the hall.

Looking back at the two women Miss.Anne smiled and gave me a small push forward," Mrs.Riley this is Lainey Carter, Lainey this is Mrs.Riley ,your adoptive parent."

Mrs.Riley smiled and said,"Please call me Maria ,"she said before yelling,"kids get down here!"

My eyes shifted towards the stairs as about five kids came to stand at the bottom of the stairs the first one that spoke was a tall blond girl with hazel eyes,she gave me a kind smile,"Hello my name is Kayla."

I gave her a shy smile and waved.

The second one was a small child with the same dark hair,and blue eyes the same as Maria's,"Hi I'm Leo!"he smiled brightly at me and I could help but grin back at him.

The third looked to be around ten again the same dark brown hair and blue eyes,"The name is Jake.."he said.

Once again I waved and gave a small smile to the boy.

The forth was probably the same age as Jake but with Blond hair and hazel eyes as her sister,"Hi I'm Karly!"

I smiled then slowly my eyes shifted to the tallest one of them all which I assumed was also the oldest one. He looked at me with intense blue eyes,his arms were crossed, across his chest as he said," And I'm Ayden."

Slowly I nodded as I kept my eyes locked on his,there was something about his eyes and the intensity that made me not want to look away... as if I was locked in place to stare in his eyes forever.

Until Maria spoke up,"My husband , Rick won't be home till later so why doesn't Kayla show you to your new room!"

Kayla smiled again and motioned for me to follow her,"Come on,"she said as she took my suitcase from my hands and lead me upstairs.

As Kayla lead me up the stairs and down the hallway she started to explain what and who's room was where,"Okay so that is Jake's room.. then Karly's room is right across from it then my parents room on the other side of the parent's room is Leo's room and across from his room is the bathroom, beside the bathroom is Ayden's room .. and across from his room is yours! I'm beside Ayden's and beside you is a guest room.."she smiled ,as she lead me to my room and opened the door.

Peeking my head inside the room I looked around it. The room was painted a light purple color, the bed was placed in the middle of the room the head board up against the wall,the sheets were white and the bed cover was a blue plaid blanket.

There was cozy window seat on the other side of the room as light pink curtain covered in green flowers were pushed aside,slowly I made my way inside the room and over to the window. Looking outside I watched Miss. Anne and Maria talk by the car before she got inside the car ,sighing softly I turned away from the window just as she drove away.

Guess I'm alone on this one now, I thought before I turned back to Kayla.

"Is it okay if I take a shower?" I asked randomly,I needed time to let this all sink in and a shower seemed like the perfect way of doing so.

Kayla smiled and nodded,"Of course! There are towel in the closet in the bathroom.. if you need me I'll be downstairs... just give me a shout,"she smiled one more time before leaving.

Shaking my head I went to get clean cloths,chewing my lip I thought about Bryan. Now that I was here who would be with him when he woke up? Would he remember that he had one family member left? And if not would someone tell him?

Frowning deeply I sighed softly as questions raced through my head I grabbed a pair of black skinny jeans and a plain white tee shirt. Slowly I walked out and towards the bathroom.

I need to just relax everything from here on out was going to be fine... everything was going to be fine, I thought as I turned on the shower and stripped,everything was going to be fine from now on... or so I hoped.