Vampire's Wish

When the girl came up to me. I looked at her. I was still trying to control my lust as I was watching her, she seemed to want something from me but I wasn't to sure on what. She started leading me some were else in the house. The lust told me to follow which I couldn't control. I ended up following the girl to a private room where the music was quieter. I was listening to my bloidlust telling me pleasure first then feed. Which made no sense. But before I could argue with it suddenly I was now on the makeshift of bed being kissed and stripped.

I starged getting exhausted and looked to where Erin had been but she wasn't there and i didn't see that other girl either. So i started to look for her

Things got heavy quick. But it took over as I flipped it to where I was on top and started doing stuff to her. As I felt her closeness to coming that vampire side of me took over and bit her softly. Trying to keep her from freaking out to much.

I did find her abd i wish i hadn't seen, the seeing her bite the other girl didn't scare her. It was her doing stuff to the other girl that made me so upset that i ran from the door out the party and to our room as i through myself onto the bed and cried. Why did i do this or cared when we weren't in any love relationship, i dont know or understand it. Just seeing her did that made my heart ache and it made it hard for me to breathe

I felt the femiler presence enter and leave the room I erased the memories of this and got quickly dress and went to find her.

I had cried myself to sleep as my subconscious awaoken and the night i had forgotten about the first time i met her on my way home to work, me running into her, me bleeding, and her pushing me up a wall and biting. The way that bite had felt good and made me moan. It all came back yet i wasn't afraid of her

I found her in our room and sighed softly. I got her in bed better and tucked her in laying down my self. Knowing those memories came back to her.

I woke when i sensed her presence in the room,"Erin...?"

"Yes Maya?" I asked quietly. Putting my journal away.

I looked at her,"how long was i asleep" i said yawning

"Not to long. By the looks of it you cried your self to sleep." I said sitting up looking at her. "You remember who I am from last night doncha?" I asked softly. I looked at her quietly.

"Yes i do" i said quietly

I nodded. "I see."

"And im fine that u drank from me because u didn't kill me"

"It wasn't my intent anyways. Not anyone I feed from." I sighed. I stood up walking to where door to our balcony is and looked out side. "Since I became part of the family I was forced into after they killed my parents. I tried to ignore the fact they made me one of them because of me being so curious all the time." I placed my hand on the window. "Though every time I try to deny who I am it gets worse for me."

I looked at her,"don't deny who u are. Yes u were forced into it but does mean u must fight ur vampire side because it will make things worse and u might hurt someone that way. U aren't the monster they the people who killed ur parents are. They had no right to do that, i bet u there is a sort of council and they are on the run from them"

I laid my head against the glass. "What's worse that the first few months were living hell because I didn't want anything to do with this life that on several times the only person in this family who is like a brother to me had to stop me several times from finding a way out of this." I said.

"why did u try to hurt ur self or kill ur self i"

"Because I didn't want this. I didn't want to be apart of this life they created."

"I can tell" i said and i went over to her and hugged her

I looked at her. "Your not afraid of me?"

"No I'm not afraid of u"

I turned more to face her. I pulled her closer.

I let her knowing she needed comfort

I sighed and let go after a while.