Different Worlds *sak and i*

I headed up to the library and put books away. I still thought of him quietly. It was okay if he didn't like me back. I'll be fine with that.. I hope.

I sat thinking about how to explain my feelings to her. I really liked her but right now I just couldn't be with hee.

I started humming to my self as I did walk by his table to put some books in that area.

I watched her quietly before she was out of sight again.

I finished the shelving and I sat behind the counter where books were to be checked out.

I realized there wasn't much of a way to not hurt her, but better that than my dad get her.

I had dozed off behind the counter when the bell rang I jumped two feet from my chair. And I gather my stuff. And looked at him before heading to class.

I went to class quietly.

I just doodled some more during that class. I looked at it and it just was all hearts and I didn't realized I drew him in my note book. I sighed and turned the page before any one else saw it.

I listened to my teacher quietly.

I payed a little more attention at the end of class. Class went slower but fast at the same time. I knew by the end of the day I wont see him till after his detention was done.

I skipped lunch today because the thought of what I had to say made me lose my appetite.

I sat on the table where we normally sat with Tia and Ralph. We were talking about something I didn't remember what. Till she saw my Notebook and what I drew in it. So I was trying to get that back when he came out here. "Give it back Tia." I said. "Oh come on don't tell me its your imagiation any more." She said. I gave up and sighed. and she ploped it on the table with that drawing showing.

I saw them fighting over the notebook but said nothing. I found a place and sat back.

"Oh come on Mist. I can see that you were drawing because you were bored. so don't tell me I'm seeing things when truely this explains every little thing in that pretty little head." Tia said. I sighed. "Okay. Okay. Got me there." I said raising my hands up then laying back looking at the sky.

I looked down at the ground quietly.

I looked over by the wall where he was standing. "Hey Hayden. Whats up?" I asked siting up again.

I looked at her. "Just thinking," I replied.

"About what?" I asked.

"Im certain you won't want to hear even though it makes total sense," I replied.

"Hey. I told you what I was thinking about last night so its only fair mister." I said.

"Well can I at least do this where no other ears can hear. I'm afraid there's an explanation that makes me not want to talk in front of others," I replied.

I sighed. And nodded. "Yea. I can understand that." I got up. and walked to one of my favoret spots at the school when I wanted to be away from people during school. I sat on the ground.

I followed her and sat next to her. "Well, this is not to say that I don't feel the same way about you but you should know I can't date you. Im not going to have sex with you and leave but I don't plan to try that honestly. Maybe when this thing with my family is over I can be with you or anyone I want then. But right now my dad will hurt you if he realizes im interested seriously in any pair of legs, as he would point out," I said.

I listened quietly. "I understand." I said softly.