Calico's poems

Do You Even See Me
Day after day
Week after week
I stand there and stare
But you don’t seem to care
Do you even see me

Day after day
Class after class
I sit there and hope
That one-day we could be
But you don’t think of me
Do you even see me

Day after day
Hour after hour
I wish you could know
How I truly feel
But you just need a friend
Someone till the end
Do you even see me

Day after day
Time passes by
I long for this thing–
This impossible dream
But will you still be there
When reality takes its tole
Do you even see me

I don’t think so.

- Calico

Does Anyone Really Care
You say you really care
So we sit there and share
All of who we are
But are you really there

Day by day
Hour by hour
We keep coming back
No one ever thought to pack

But then you came no more
As if we were a bore
She stole you from our clasp
With her wicked grasp

We thought you were different
But the truth is still the same
We were just a phase
That passed by in a haze

You say you really care
But do you really dare
I guess the answer is no
So we just sit and watch the show

No one ever really cares

-Calico

Should You Really Hope
WHY do I feel so alone
You were sitting here next to me
But mind has done all but flown
Don’t just let me be

EVERYTHING I do
I did for you
Though you just shook your head
And then went off to bed

WAS I thrown out like an old scone
All I can do is cry
Yet away my life has blown
Dare I even try

MY time is here
But you don’t seem to care
I pick up the blade
And sit here in the shade

LIFE is meaningless
When things are mean-less
Have you left anything of substance
No so why bother with sustenance

NOW is they end
Though I don’t know how to fend
You turned your back
So I chose to pack

IS there a point anymore
For I wish to be nevermore
Cant you see the obvious
Your approval was all there is

GONE is the joy
Now don’t be coy
Away is my will
Just like a bill

FOREVER is long
But the lies are longer
You gave up on me
And didn’t want to see

GOODBYE to you
I’ll just shoo
This was the end
So I take my eternal bed

I WISH YOU COULD HAVE UNDERSTOOD ME OR EVEN LISTENED BUT BECAUSE YOU DIDN’T I AM DEAD.

-Calico

I Promised...
I promise to not cut or die
And this for sure is not a lie
Oh what to do but sit and cry
I care for you, do you for I

I promised to find my way
To not let me be led astray
This is no small task to sway
I need you, but you never stay

I promised I would take that bite
So you stayed to make sure I might
One small word did start a fight
I sit and stare at you in spite

I promised you that I'd stay true
Though you did not come through
Day by day I wait in que
Longing to be near to you

I promise, I promised it all for you.

-Calico

*Written in for my beloved Grandmother, may she rest in peace now*

Through Her Eyes to My Soul
Sitting, sitting, always staring
Searching for something deep bellow
Reaching, reaching, but never seeing
What is it that doth bother you so

Of in the distance I see a flicker
You gaze is focusing in much quicker
Twirling, twirling, I see you now
Not you but a girl from long ago

Your eyes are like windows
Shining with a mighty bright light
It brings me such joy to see what you might
That girl there dancing, her dress in a swirl

You turn your head
Almost afraid to remember
Running, running, your memories all a quiver
Hush now just rest your head

Does it hurt to remember
These scenes of long ago
People laughing joyously
Ladies lounging under trees

The years have gone by
Times have grown hard
A life come undone
And one waiting to be begun

So lay back your head
Rest your weary eyes
Take one last breath
For this is goodbye

-Calico

Bellow the Surface
Strange, yet funny
Clear, yet muddy
A world in shambles
Her fear she gambles

Strength is her weakness
The shadows her safe
Change be the enemy
Her stability does make

A constant once found
Will crumble away
Her puppeteer her master
His power all around

Danger in numbers
She's safer alone
Pain only hurts
When it is the unknown

Our world is quite strange
The little things funny
Purpose be clear
Though Intentions are muddy

She's someone who runs
The truth unbearable
Strong she may seem
But a child within

She'll run through her tears
Never knowing where to turn
A slip and she stumbles
To her destination unknown.

-calico

The Lost One's Tale
I spiral up
Then tumble down
The climb is high
My fall be great

For every leap forward
My feet run back
Rewards are welcome
Though disappointment doesn't lack

My home is a cave
cold and empty
My friends found in darkness
Pain still lingers in the air

A family long lost
Their child forgotten
Forsaken by most
The whispers her host

Shadows do beckon
The night be her world
People come unwanted
Their true colors have shown

Few are found worthy
They, she lets in
One turns away
Taking the secrets from within

Troubled she runs
Hurt she breaks down
Dreams turn to nightmares
Fear all around

Two are left standing
Foundations are caving
Family once gone
Returns to her pieces

The mother a monster
The father a flake
The brothers hold grudges
The sister no face

Where is their baby
What have they lost
With their backs turned so long
Her changes their cost

They dwell and debate
Should they accept her so late
The majority say no
Her father is overruled

Time has gone on
And no one got through
Some feel forgotten
But this is not true

Others act as masters
Through her naivety she's there puppet
Confused and manipulated
Bitter she becomes

Through anger she'll grow
Her resentment is strength
Years of enslavement
A stubborn will makes

Her deserter returns
But the words spoken
Simply fall on deaf ears
Not that she's mad, just betrayed

So long spent alone
The father in the background
Now fights for her rights
forgiveness is granted, he she lets in

Truths are revealed
Fake be the flake
For his heart was still true
What once was thought lost
has now been restored

For ages this child has wandered in darkness, her true self hidden to keep her safe. Those she let in often hurt her, a family full of lies felt like her murder. A life falls to pieces, the world carries on, though all it took was the love of another. She has found a safe house, her father her only family, And now at last she may let her story end...

-Calico

What Lies Within
Daughter of Dark
Oh, where is your master
The chains on your heart
Are Closing in faster

Angel of Light
Look what you’ve lost
Losing this fight
Her freedom your cost

Creature of Black
With greed from your past
Delicate and frail
Your claws are her cell

Anger once ignored
Bitterness does breed
Kindness makes bored
The monster it feeds

Slowly he grows
Stealthy his ways
Through shadows he flows
Destruction he sows

This day always sunny
Its night has come early
Clouds swallow stars
His weakness show sparks

-Calico

Tides of Change
life is but a cruel joke
the unsuspecting it waits to choke
when you think you’ve got it right
it falls apart out of smite

people come and then they go
following life’s gentle flow
so now I must sit and ask
why cling on to ones past

for some its fear
and others its greed
but me, I want it far from here
so from it to finally be freed

many dreams were created
but most have been destroyed
the reality of the world
with our minds has toyed

so gather what’s left
the ruins of soul
link them together
and away we may sail

-Calico

All It Takes
A single word
One wrong glance
A life built strong
Came crumbling down

What seems so little
Will hurt so much
Such simple things
Hold such weighty power

Your laughter so loud
Feeds pain so deep
The half muttered phrases
Bringing blood that seeps

World of grey
World of red
This world of colors
Has fallen dark

People wear masks
The cracks like poison
Once they’re seen
Devour one and all

A cold heart
A cruel justice
The building blocks
To a shaking foundation

Tears are falling
Trails that sparkle
Eyes of glass
Show a shadowy past

-Calico

Words From the Well
Oh empty head
Full of empty thoughts
The great heavy heart
Spewing heavy words

Walls falling down
Wait, quick, stop!
Grab up the ropes
Hurry tie them tight

Anchors away!
Ship set assail
Fair winds, smooth seas
Calm before the storm

Sitting and staring
Shores of now
Rock gives way
Welcome tides of then

-Calico

*this one is actually a beat poem so its all about how its read aloud, which is why it looks a little funky*

Hide the children, put out the lights
Lock the doors, seal the windows
Do what it takes

Hide away
Hide from the SAFETY, from PROGRESS, from HELP
Hide from the foolish men pulling the strings.

Pup-pets of society:

RADIO broadcasts, TELEVISION signals tw-isting minds and warp…….ing thoughts

Hiding facts and selling lies

Telling me what to do, what to think, what to buy

Speaking of a fight
Free-DUMB:
.......digger of graves

They steal my voice,
Turn around its ok
Stab you in the back in the name of change
Robbing me of my dreams, eating away at my heart.
Destroying my truth in place of their own.

I cry my grievances, demand justices, all to deaf ears.

The judge, the jury, the court, its all theirs
What they don’t already own they take.

Past?
.......Erase it
Present?
.......Ignore it
Future
.......Blin-Dead

Subliminal messages and mass hypnosis control the country
Nation in ruins, so simply don’t look.

wow these are really good.
keep up the good work

Web of Lies

Its official
I cant believe anything you say
Not now, nor ever again!

All the hurt and worry
The anger and pain
Even self blame!

all for nothing
because at the end of the night
I am the fool for having a heart

do you enjoy toying with emotions?
do my tears bring you joy?

your lies now mean nothing
all words now spoken
fall upon now deaf ears

Foggy Reality

Promises broken
Words spoken
Heart in ruins
Mind in ashes

Life’s mistress is fate
And she can be cruel
the pull of her tides
drag down the strong

Quick throw a rope
I’ll keep you afloat
Lets dry those tears
Hope erase fears

Pain will overwhelm
Sadness swallow joy
Happiness is hidden
Love run aground

hush, hush
your safe now
rest your weary head
and go back to bed

Now is Your Time

Whisper softly
Words unspoken
This Silence Golden
To our hearts it speaks

Keep peace of mind
All woes locked away
Whims are now dreams
They shimmer and sway

Run from your sadness
Fears to be kept out
Come out of the darkness
For now is your time