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"But you were there...you sent me spirit..you helped me stay awake...or did you do it all for Ana?..only caring about her..' I looked down, crying uncontrolably.

I sat next to her, "I did it to help both of you" I said, "In case you didn't realise I've kinda liked Ana for years now...I was helping you and her, I sent spirit to both of you"

I got up.

"Fine...I'm sorry for having made you waist your time on me..." I looked at him one last time and cried. I walk two steps before falling to the floor.

I rushed to her, "Mina" I said, "Look I'm sorry..But after everything" I sighed

I felt helpless.

"It's fine...just forget I said anything...I'll always remember you as the first guy I ever liked...and the one who gave me my first jkiss..." I cried more, trying to stop but unable..

I looked at her, I didn't realise she felt that strongly towards me, I helped her up and sat her on the couch, I passed her a tissue and wiped her hair from her face

He was being nice...but it was because I was crying..I was trying to stop..

I wiped her eyes gently, "Come on" I said, "Stop the crying please"

(okay I'm going to move to first person)

Dougie left for 'a talk' with Mina, I knew what she wanted to know, my walls were still there but they were only cancling out the background noise, I still wasn't strong enough to block out everyone.
My hads were still shaking as I made my way towards the canteen, my legs were weak beneath my weight.
I was walking down the stairs when I suddenly felt very light headed, I clutched onto the banister and slowly dragged myself down the rest of the way.
I managed to get to the cafateria jsut in time, my legs went from underneath me, I felt someone catch me and I turned around to see the face of my Drama teacher.
Ms. Fogg helped me to a chair and asked what was wrong.
I told her I was just low on energy, she didn't buy it but accepted that this was all I wanted to tell her.
She got me some food and sat with mefor afew minutes before she ahd to go teach another class.
"Are you sure you'll be alright?" She asked.
I swallowed my steak and nodded. "Yes, I'll be fine now" I smiled.

I had finally been able to stop. I wiped my eyes.

"I'm sorry...I feel like a baby.."

"You're not a baby" I said standing up, "Sorry," I said looking at the clock, "I said I'd meet someone"

I looked down and nodded..I knew he'd leave me sometime...

"Ok...like I said though...I will never forget the time we spent together..."

I looked at Mina, "I won't forget either" I said hugging her

I finished my meal and felt a little stronger, oratleast more sturdy on my feet.
I took my empty tray and went back to the counter for seconds, I was absolutley famished.
I took a helping of roast duck, taking the other option on the menu this time, and stocked up on all the trimmings.

I hugged him back.

"Thanks..."

"It's ok" I said before turning and leaving to find Ana, I walked to the dining hall and saw her, "Hey," I said to her, "Sorry about that"

I sat there, feeling like I had lost something..

I got up and went to the only place I wanted to be. I knocked on Jasons door..

I turned around, "Oh It's fine" I smiled looking at Dougie, and then back to my food, trying to pick up the mountain of food that was stock piled on my tray. "Man, I'm so fat" I laughed.

I smiled, "You're not fat" I assured her, "You used a lot of energy back there" I piled a plate of food

"Jason...can i..?" I asked again.

I grinned, he was sweet.
I made my way back to the table, "Yeah, that was, kind of scary." I said,
"I really thought that was it.
Just all thesee voices, shouting, screaming in my head. I though I was going to explode" I laughed.

I gave up on him and walked to my room. I had to pass throu the dining area. I heard Douggie and Ana talking and a tear escaped. I ran to my room and closed the door. Falling down to the floor and crying more.