Just Say you Dont Love Me (2)

And it was at the moment when I finally caught his eye that I went semi-crazy and lost control I jumped up and hugged him. "Elliot!" I never had irrational moments but this was one of them. "I pulled back with a blush which was one thing I never did and for once I was at a loss for words so I just said. "Erm..."

My eyes widened as she hugged me, "Uh" I said but smiled, "Hey, Paysin"

I scratched the back of my head. "Uh, yeah, Hi, sorry about that." was it because I was going to miss him? This was the last time I was going to see Elliott...and Raksha....and Sasha....and Jason. But I wouldnt let it stop me. "I need some air, let me know what the High Priestess says about the scheduals." I told Raksha and Sasha. I walked past Elliot and headed out the door, I didnt look at Jason or Vitani when I walked past the bathrooms, I walked right out of the main doors. I could leave now...but the gaurds would stop me...I sighed and settled my sitting on a bench by a water fountain outside.

I watched as she left.
Then I did something I wouldn't usually do..I went after her

I put my hand in the water and hummed a song I remembered hearing from an old lady I passed when I was still traveling. I remembered how she had take me in for the night and treated me with so much kindness that I almost didnt want to leave and she told me I could stay with her, of course I refused. I ran like I always did, I can never stay in one place too long and I didnt know why. That old lady had given me the best advice that had ever been given to me and I still don't follow by it, now that advice whirled in my head, giving me a headache. A tear rolled down my cheek...I was crying...for the first time since I was eight years old, I was actually crying and now I couldn't stop. I started to hyperventillate and cry some more, I fell off the bench and to my knees. I pain squeezed in my stomach and chest, I wrapped my arms around myself and sat there on my knees crying so hard it was getting hard to breathe.

I saw her, on the ground.
"Paysin" I called rushing to her side. I scooped her up in my arms and sat on the bench holdingh er

I gripped his shirt and dug my face into his chest, crying harder. I couldn't stop, maybe all these years of holding back tears was catching up to me. "Elliott make it stop." I begged

I stroked her hair, "I can't" I whispered, "Just cry it out, it'll help I promise"

I closed my eyes and the tears kept pouring I felt like we were there for hours, me crying and Elliot holding me. Finally they stopped and I layed there breathing heavily on his chest. "I never do this...I havent cried in so long..."

I just hold her to me as she crys, "You shouldn't hold stuff in" I told her softly and brushed her hair from her face

I closed my eyes as his fingers touched my hair. "That feels nice." I sighed and looked at him. "I didn't have time to cry, Elliot, I was always running."

"Then stop running" I told her, "Stay here"

I shook my head. "I can't."

I looked at her, "Please"

I closed me eyes, I feared this. "Elliot..."

"Paysin" I sighed

I stared into his eyes and I couldnt fight it anymore. "I will stay as long as I have a reason to...and you just gave me one." I whispered as I brought my lips up to his and kissed him softly. I had never kissed anyone before and kissing Elliot was nice and sweet...and for once she felt totally at ease and blissful.

I kissed her back just as softly, "Can I be your reason?"

I smiled up at him. "You are, Elliot. You are my reason."

I grinned down at her, and held her, "So you wont leave"

I shook my head. "Not as long as I have a reason." I sighed. "We should go back before the gaurds come looking."


((That was a magical moment =] hahahaha only 70 pages of foreplay xD ))

((Wow, we dragged that on a bit It was sweet though...I was awwing ))

I hugged her and laughed, "Yeah" I said, "Don't want to worry anyone"

I hugged him close and laughed. "True, True." I stood up and wiped at my face. "I must look like a total wreck."

((hehe me too =] ))

(now the love triangle gets to start lol i already have you now time for jason. muahahaha lol ))