Hiding,surviving and loving....((Open Join))

I nodded, "I'm dealing with a lot," i swung my legs, "keeping tabs on everyone, how they are. You don't know what it is like, I'm the one basically raising you guys... I'm the only one bringing money in and taxes are coming up. I'm just stressed, okay?"" i set my head in my hands, i hated talking about my feelings it made me want to run again. I bit my tongue, sunddenly wanting to be back in my usual Gothic clothing then the running clothes. I could hid in them.

I rested my head on his shoulder, "Not until your though school. I got lucky, i was requited to work there. I don't expect you to get it its just a lot," i looked at the black water, "and, this is what happens instead of a panic attack right now, i let them out. and run for my life." i bit my tongue, realizing how close i was to someone and i couldn't feel them lying. I sighed, pulled away and laid on my back, "I'll be home in a few hours, you can go back if you like."

I sighed, "I don't care. So, why'd you come after me anyway? I usually just off missing for a few days and show up fine. Why this time?" i asked, curious.

I filled my plate and went back out to talk with Oliver. "They left me to fend for myself at a young age... so i ya i a rough life... then i meet Deya at school and from there life be came somewhat easier."

"It´s good you met her" I commented

I sat on the couch bored and yawned

"I would of been getting myself drunk and doing bad stuff. I firgured all of this because nobody was there for me or even wanted me so ya..."

I sighed, "You feel a dark thing around you by chance?"

I sighed, "Shadow like to get out if i'm distracted or let them out. I'll keep a better handle on them, sorry. What do you mean, 'sometimes'?"

"What´s important is you actually went through all and noticed what was wrong" I muttered

I yawned and closed my eyes

"No i'm still goign through it... i beat up a girl earlier today... i lost my temper. Well tell me your story. I have time plus i need to eat." i started to eat the pizza.

I smiled "Okay, Mhm how to start?" I asked to myself

I fell asleep

"How about at the begining." i smiled.

I looked at him, "One reason you may feel dark right now is because I ignore feelings. I hate them, and when they surface, I get flipped around like no one ever wants to see. That is why i leave." I got up, pulling the shadows back, and letting a few demos out, "See? Demons NEVER come out unless something is really bugging me." Like love, "at least these don't go running around setting fires."

[color=blue]"Right, okay my life has been generally normal, but I had a time in which I was a complete idiot" I confessed[/color

"What did you do?" Itook another bite of my pizza.

"What were those things you weren't proud of?"

"Oh... i can tell you have changed."