House of Night -- New York City

I managed to choke out to James "back...head..." I cried harder.

I walked around looking for someone anyone to talk to. I looked around and saw barely anyone around. I decided to go up to the doors. I played with the shadows, bending them and made a boy out of them, sure it was an outline. but it was as close to a boy as id get. I smiled grimly and started walking again

i always carried tylonal.. "i have some pain killers but nothing to drink...."

I looked slightly up at James. "I'll be fine" I sat up and tried to stand by stumbled a bit and winced.

"ok..."

I leaned on James a bit for support.

i held her.

"Thank you James" I was held. It felt.. Nice.

I nodded. "welcome."

I looked up at him and smiled. When he held me I felt as if he took all the pain away.

(thats his affinity! he can be a healer!!!!!)

i just stood there and held her.

(omg yeah!!!!!!)


I blushed a bit. I didn't want him to let go.

(*hugs you* i could almost kiss ya but i wont.)

i looked at raven. both of them were beautiful and one of them would end up getting hurt..

(*hugs back* yeah don't *laugh*)

I smiled and stayed close to him.

i needed to talk to my sister as soon as star was ok to be on her own...

"I think I'll be okay" my voice was hoarse.

"okay." i let go and went to find my sister.

I waved bye and sat under the tree. 'what if...' I shook my head.I didn't want to think about dying or turning into an adult.

i found her in the girls comman room. "meggie i am in some serious sh!t."

meggie: "whats the matter?"

"i like star...and raven."

"okay.... take a few days to get to know them."

i sighed. "im kind of more taken with raven....."

" give it a week, ok?"

i nodded.

my brother could be an idiot sometimes.

I sit against the tree and I winced 'crap...now I know something is going to happen' I quickly stood up and ran to the infirmiry.

i walked around. trying to get myself lost. i thought about what meggie said.

I ran past James but I kept running. I didn't want this to happen. I was only a 5th former.

i saw star run past me. i ran after her to what was wrong.

I ran inside the infirmary and fell down. I didn't wantto be an adult vampire! I wanted to be a fledging!

i kept running after her until i was in the infirmary.