Different Worlds *sak and i*

I watched her quietly.

"YEs?" I asked quietly knowing he was watching me.

"Sorry," was all I said as I looked away. I stood there awkwardly before I decided to just go to my room for now.

I sighed. And sat there.

I laid back on the bed.

I thought of what to do for dinner. I had writen a list for what we need. I went to tell papa what I was doing and that I was going to get the stuff we didn't have.

I closed my eyes quietly.

After that i headed to the store.

Sylvia came into the room to play.

I came back home with food.

I watched her play quietly. It was strange how creative creative she was.

I started to make dinner. Quietly Humming to my self.

I smiled softly as I watched her.

I put it in the oven then went up stairs. "Hey dinner will be done in a hour and Half."

"Alright, thanks," I smiled at her.

"yea No problem." I said. And staarted to head back down stairs.

I watched her leave quietly, then I gathered my sister so we could go downstairs.

I sat on the couch watching tv. Hugging the couch pillow.

We came down quietly. Sylvia went ahead and sat down in the living room and I just lingered in the doorway.

I sat there I saw Sylvia sit down. I looked over to see him still standing there. "You okay?"

"Yeah, I'm OK," I replied. The way she's been acting today has me hesitating to get close, out of respect for her personal space.

"Why you just standing there?"

I shrugged," not too sure myself." I gave a small and humorous smile for her sake. Really I was sure of my uncertainty. I never knew to be in a relationship, or to want to be in one, was so difficult. It was like walking on a not very frozen pond in winter. I assumed most of it was my self doubt, the rest was girl things I don't understand; just from the vibes she's radiating. Then there was my sister who appeared to have it l figured out. To her it's as simple as yes or no. Either I like her or I don't. But I know she knows I do. Our problem though lies within the relationship. I'm too afraid to feel what I put those girls through when I would one night them then dump them the next day.

"Well don't be a sour puss. Get over here and sit. Alright." I said. I was just trying to Lighten the mood from what it was today. Though I still think That girl Lilly Would be a better person for him but I didn't even know all about him yet either. I liked him yes. But Its not been easy to get to know about him more than I already do.

"Alright," i said. I walked quietly and sat down on the side most convenient to where I walked in. Which it happened to be on the other side of the couch because I came in from the left whereas she was on the right. I sunk down a little so that I lined up perfectly to lean my head back on the back of the couch. I stared up at the ceiling quietly. My thoughts were once again overrun by her. Question after question. There wasn't a guarantee we would be together.