A Sister's Love [X]

"She was confused......" i told him....."Like you've herd im sure we've never dated anyone at school......" i continued. "Im kind of hoping a planted a seed in her thoughts to think about dating jake...."

i walked in with alice.

*passed out*

I kept dreaming......Everything was perfect. nothing was out of place. He even pushed me into the water and I was laughing.

I looked at Jake. I didn't know where to go...I had worry lines on my face.

I nodded "That's to be expected. If she's never dated anyone she is going to be scared. She's going to keep pushing him away until he finally decides to just jump in and touch her. Sometimes you have to take a risk. She will come around. Since you are dating she will also. She wouldn't know what to do with herself if she didn't." I stroked her cheek while I talked.

i leaned my cheek into his hand.......i kind of wanted him to kiss me....

*passed out*

i made alice sit in one of the chairs in the waiting room.

I smiled and leaned in and lightly kissed her. "Don't worry about your sister. She will come around."

I sat down and started to cry. I felt lightheaded. It sucked!

*slept.*

*passed out*

i rubbed alices back.

i smiled...."I should show you my rose garden........." i said softly......

I smiled "That would be lovely. I'd like that." I kissed her again.

I leaned into Jake. "I want to go see Sammy...." I got up and tryed to walk but failed.

*sleeping*

i smiled....i felt kind of light headed.....but it was good....with him i didnt feel...panicy....

"I know. i do too." i got up and steayed her.

*In surgury.*

My dream drifted from one thing to another It showed me and Rose happy with eachother like when we were 8 years old. Othertimes it showed just me a Jake. I liked those for some reason. part of me wanted him to touch me or stroke my hand or even hold it. Even just the lightest brush across my face. Anything to say your cute and that I am here for you. I knew that wasn't going to happen though. I wanted Carla near me. This sucked being by myself. They even talked about taking out my tube tomorrow since I was already breathing on my own. I would be relased in just mere hours. I was excited. The dreams kept on but I watched them. I liked the thouching...I didn't understand where this was coming from.

I walked with jake to Sammy's room. She was asleep so I took the chair next to her so that Jake could sit next to her on her bed. She looked happy in her sleep. I was so gald.

I smiled and pulled her in close and held her neck in my hands and kissed her deeply. I hopped I wasn't going to fast.

i watched her sleep....she did look happy....i wondered what she was dreaming about.....

i didnt have a cup of coffee in my hand....i wrapped my arm around his neck....i kissed him back......kissing felt so...so...so....good.... i didnt want him to stop...but i had to pull away so i could intake air.....i rest my head on his chest and and breathed in and out......and then i kissed him hard on the lips.

i could hear voices...... doctors and nurses?, i thought.....maybe they had to do surgury on me like they had to with sammy....... i still felt like i was floating......

I smiled at him. Anyone could only guess what she was dreaming about. ioked at Jake "Isn't she beautiful?"

Something inside of me wanted more. It wanted more then just kissing....more then just touching....but I wouldn't let it show. I kissed her back hard on the lips. I pulled her as close as she could get and wrapped my arms around her.

I slept peacfully. I still had a smile on my face.

"She is beautiful....so so beautiful and yet im gussing she doesnt understand......." i told alice.

everything about him was so good......his smell, his touch, his lips on mine,and yet i had this weird feeling of wanting to be even closer.........


when i woke up i was in a white room......was i in heaven?

I shook my head "No she probably doesn't. She is a very smart girl and very beautiful and kind. She just doesn't know what to do about this probably. I can tell she likes you though." I smiled.

I smiled at her and turned around and picked up the 2 cups of coffee "Here you go."

I turned over onto my side and my hand fell off of the bed. I mummbled Jake in my sleep.

i smiled at sammy and held her hand....


i took the cup of coffeee and took a sip. i smiled at him.

i wonder where i was......

I squeezed my hand. I didn't know what was going on. I just wanted to go home. I kept wispering Jake's name. I wanted him to touch me. I didn't understand. I tryed to toss and turn in my sleep but the tube wouldn't let me go to far. I started to cry in my sleep. I wanted to go home....I wanted Rose near....I wanted Jake near me too.....

I smiled back at her. "Is it how you wanted it?" I pulled her close. I knew she needed someone near her.

I watched Jake and Sammy I looked at Jake "See. She does like you." I smiled. "She's never done this in her sleep. Poor Sammy.....Poor Carla!" Tears ran down my face.

GO HOME DAY


i was so happy. Sammy and Carla could go home. i would soon be able to take sammy on a date. her firt ever date.

my chest still hurt but they said i could go home....

Id be so busy with sammy........Adam would feel so left out.......i could get sammy all set in her bed and then show him my rose garden.....

I looked around the room at the Dr. They said that I could go home. I wanted to go home. I sat up and let my legs fall off of the bed. My chest did hurt but I didn't care. I just wanted to get out of here.

I stayed close to Rose. I didn't want to leave her side.

I stood in the doorway not sure what to do.

i held sammy's hand and leaned into adam.

i wanted carla.....


i was waiting outside with a car that could fit all of us.

I held onto Rose's hand and stood up. It's been so long since I had walked it was hard to move my legs. I walked anyway. After a little while I was ok.

I walked over to Carla "You ready to go home?" I offered my hand to her.

I held onto Rose. I didn't want her to fall.

i looked into adams eyes.....i really wanted to sneak away with him and let our lips meet......

"yea...i am alice.."

*waiting*

I nodded. I understood what she wanted. I put my hand under Sammy's arm to help steady her.

I helped Carla up and walked her out the the van.

I stumbled a little but after a while I started to get really tired. I finally made it out to the car. I was in my same clothes that I had been kicked in. I didn't really care. I slid into the van and wated for everyone to get in.

we went to the van and got in.

i had alice buckle me up slowly.

when everyone was in i started the van. "Where to first?"

I saw everyone get into the van. I looked at Jake "Your driving.....I guess we should drop off Carla and Alice first." I laid back in the seat. I was still tired from walking.

I looked at Sammy talk and just kept quiet. Carla needed to get to bed.

I pulled Rose close and kissed her on the cheek. I wasn't sure if she wanted to kiss in the back of a van.

i smiled...i couldnt wait to show him my rose garden....


"ill go to carla's first so tell me how to get there please."

i liked the sound being in my bed....my big comfy bed.

I told Jake where to go and as soon as we pulled into the drive I helped Carla out and into her house. I was going to stay with her till her parents got home.

I closed my eyes and drifted back asleep.

I was excited to see her rose garden. I wanted to see how beautiful it was.

As soon as they were out i drove to Sammy and Rose's house.

id won a few awards for my rose's that breeded.....

"thank you, alice....."