Looking Back on Life

"So then, that's everyone so far..." I looked back down at the gaping hole in the ground and winced. Clear as day, I could see Ven, sitting atop my old motorycle. He must have kept it after I died. He was wearing his signature green adidas jacket, with the hood down. When i saw the sad look in his eyes I felt tears threatening to corners of my own. What were once bright, fierce brown eyes, were now dark and lifeless. the grief that he carried overwhelmed him to the point that I could almost feel it. "Ven..." I muttered, burrying my face in my arms.

"Do you think we could go back and talk to our loved ones as ghosts?" i threw out to slice the silence

"i donno maybe" i said in japanese

"I don't know...I don't think I'd want to...It's because of me taht everything bad happened to them. It's better this way."

"sorry used to Japanese i hope we will be able to" i said

"you two would really go back? Why?"

"to see the ones we love well thats my reson" i said

"I would want to see Nana at some point......just so she knows im ok...that i still love her"

"yeah see my mom and bro and....Rena" i said

"I know how oyu feel--I'd give anything to see ven and Virmoli again but...when I came into their lives nothing but bad happened...I caused more trouble than good...I don't know if I could ever face them knowing that."

"What will you guys miss from being a live?"

"A heart beat" i said

i waited for the girl to say something

i looked at every one

"friends who love me and accept me for everything I was before I met them."

I saw Ren looking back at us. "What's up?"

"Ill miss making love to my Nana" i said in japanese by mistake

i blushed at what he said and looked down

"Ven and I never did anything. We didn't get to that point...why you so red, Kain?"

"nothing" i said

(Hey, can we pick this up tomorrow? I gotta go for the night, work here at nine...catch everyone later? Ill make a post real fast.)

Suddenly I felt really light headed and drowsy. I slowly got to my feet, stumbling as I did. "Sorry, but I feel really weird all of a sudden...I think I need some rest...Uh, I'll come back later..." With that, i stumbled away, through the meadow until found a place and fell to the ground, asleep within seconds.

"ok" i sadi and watched her go ((okay bye bye))

(Ren spoke in japanese........so unless ur char knows japanese krenlo u dont know what ren said)

i picked up a can of beer and popped it. i took a sip

((i guess im just jumpin in here then.. Is thats ok Daryle?))

Name: Samantha (Sam)
Age: died at age 18
Bio: she died in a plane crash going to' visit her family

(( is this ok Daryle?))

(yes, tis all good zoey)