Lost Love Notes

N: "Then I will do anything." I said.
A: I smiled and kissed her deeply.

I kiss him back wrapping my arms around his neck while my hands play with his hair

"Do whatever your body feels like doing to me"

N: "Brian, that's not my call here, well it is but I don't know." I wasn't sure about anything right now. The longer I stayed cornered, the more nervous I grew.
A: I smiled and hugged her tightly.

I back away, "Sorry"

"What's this for?"

N: "It's fine, but maybe you should tell me what you're interested in." I said.
A: "Just to make sure I;m not crazy." I said.

I chuckle, "I just wanted a kiss"

"Why would you be crazy?"

N: I smiled. "I waas afraid it was more." I wlaked up to him and kissed him passionately.
A: "It's hard to believe I have a loving family." I said.

I kiss her back with as much passion

"Well that's what you have" I smile

N: I smiled and kissed deeper.
A: I smiled at her. "It would seem so. And I am very grateful."

"If you DONT want to go any farther than I suggest we stop"

I smile and nod, "Lets go home"

N: I sighed. "Now you've done it, I was going to let you until you said that. And it's hard to really get me in the mood. Oh well, in a few years maybe you'll do it." I said. "What did you want me to see?"
A: I nodded and got her.

I smile and pull some letters put of my back pocket, "Read a few"

I giggle, "Our babies are happy"

N: I looked at them then at him. "Why?" I asked just out of curiosity.
A: I smiled at her. "I hope they are."

"I wrote them...for you"

"Feel them"

N: I nodded and took them and sat down.
A: "I will, but not now. It's not safe while I'm driving tp feel, sorry. I will at home." I said, feeling bad.

I sit with her

"Its fine baby"

N:each note makes my heart break, I knew that it hurt us both during the time we were broken up. I was glad not to know how bad it had effected him. When I;d read them all, I felt horrible for not believing him. I sat there quietly like a statue.
A: When we got home, as soon as we were in the living room, the front door shut and locked, I felt them.

"Well?"

I giggle and watch

N: "They were all touching, and really expressed your pain at the moment." For me, those notes were like he yelled at me about what happened. Someone else wouldn't have seen it that way, just smiled and said 'they're wonderful!' and whatever. Not me.
A: I smiled, even though I couldn't feel anything. I began talking to them softly.

"Your lying"

"You can't feel them can you?"

N: "Half lying. There's a difference." I said and glanced at him. "I told you what I thought of them, not how I felt. But they are pretty closely related. As beautiful asw they are, they made me hurt because they were written when we weren't together. Learning of your pain during that time is something that really hit me." I admitted. I would rather be slapped right now.
A: "No, but I know they're there." I admitted.

I hand her others, "These were while we were together..."

"They like hearing your voice"

N: I nodded and took them silently. I felt better as I went through them and actually smiled. One made me giggle though because of how cheesy it was.
A: I smiled. "I'm glad, because they'll be hearing for the rest of our lives." I said. "I won't back out on them like my dad, or favorite one over the others. And if something happens to you I won't change anything about our relationship." I promised strongly.

"You made me saybthe cheesiest things ever"

"That's all I'm asking for" I smile and feel them again

N: I looked at him. "I can tell. But I love that you're honest with me." I moved so I was curled into him.
A: I smiled.