Lost Love Notes

L: "As much as I want to change that I did, I just want this to stay the same. I have everything I ever wanted. I have someone that loves me, and I love back, and I have a family, a big one. That will keep growing until I say stop." I said.
E: "As many as I can handle. I want to have a nice size family." I said.

((Time skip next day?))

D: "I agree"

K: "I agree"

(sho)
*next day*
B: I woke up before Alec and laid there quietly.
A: I woke early, which was a little odd. But I hadn't gotten much sleep last night.
E: I stood in the kitchen getting some water.

K: I wrap my arms around her

"Aaron? You up?"

A: "Yeah." I looked at her.
E: I closed my eyes. "I'm scared Kaname, and worried." I said in a whisper.

K: "I know I know" I hug her, "he'll make it through"

I rest my head against his chest, "I didn't get much sleep"

B: I snuck out of bed and went downstairs carefully. I wasn't sure what I was doing, but for some reason I was avoiding everyone who was up and trying not to get their attention.
A: "Neither did I." I held her tightly.
E: I nodded. "I know."

"What time is the appointment?"

K: "It's ok to cry"

B: I went out the front door and of course, it was raining. There was nothing in the front to protect me, but in the back they had a gazebo set up. I sat down and felt silent tears slip down my cheeks. I realized I was worried that because I was so needy of him right now, that if his dad did die I wouldn't be enough for him.
A: "12."
E: "I've done all the crying I can do." I said.

A: her emotions are what woke me up. I just out of bed and go searching for her

K: "So we wait"

I squeeze his hand, "What if something happens?"

B: I could feel him awake so I did my best to stay out of sight in the front. I knew he'd be worried about why I was crying, and that I was catching a cold.
A: "The doctors would take me in early, but during the surgery they'd do everuthing they can to help keep me alive."
E: "Sadly."

A: I go to the porch, "Belle?" I call out for her

"I'll give you some of my life force"

K: "Not patient"

B: I stayed quiet in my spot. I prayed he wouldn't sense me over here, but of course he's really good at all this mate stuff. That and a pregnant girl isn't hard to sniff out. I saw him look at me and I put my head down in defeat.
A: "Keep it. I have enough to fight, and I'll be feeding off of it to live like you did mine. Later, so it won't do me good to have it now."
E: "No."

A: "Belle, why are you crying?"

I nod

K: "It's ok"

B: "I'm scared for you." I said.
A: I kiss her head.
E: "I just want to know already."

A: "Love why?"

I squeeze his hand and look at his wedding ring

K: "patience is a virtue"

B: "Because, say you did lose your dad, you'd be lost and I'm so needy right not that I wouldn't be enough to help you." I said.
A: I watch her quietly.
E: "It's not a trait in my family."

A: I sit next o her and hug her tight, "never will happen"

"Remember what you used to say to me? Your hand fits perfectly in mine. Lets never separate two things that are meant to be together"

K: "oh?"

B: "I'm not convinced." I said.
A: "I totally agree. But on another note, you should know if something does happen I promise I will come back. I will come find you." I said.
E: "Yes."

A: "Why love?"

"Always?"

K: "Does that mean when you get pregnant you won't be patient to get them out"

B: "Because I have 0 self confidence levels." I said.
A: "Always." I promised. "Want me to seal it with a kiss?"
E: "Yep, I'll be mad all the time."

A: "Oh baby" I hug her tighter

"Yes sir"

K: "I'm preparing myself now"

B: I put my arms around him limply. I thought he knew that. I always relied on everyone else to tell me how I looked, if I let myself give my opinion about myself.....well, it wouldn't be nice.
A: I kissed her hard.
E: "It's best to."

A: "How did it happen?"

I kiss him back

K: "I'm ready for anything"

B: "I just stopped believing in myself. The day my parents took me out of school. I felt stupid because I can't take minor insults that I know aren't true. That's what's so wrong with me right now." I said and felt selfish.
A: I held her to me tightly.
E: "No you're not."