Lost Love Notes

B: "Thank you, these kids are beating down on me right now." I said but then realized it wasn't just them, I was getting really tired.

A: I sighed and said nothing in reply. It was never easy to talk to them anymore, and I knew it was my fault. I'd hurt Emerald when she'd tried to help me, and she sealed my wolf.

E: I nodded and we went outside to sit and talk. "Dad hasn't said everything yet. His wolf wasn't eating, or doing anything but laying there. I just wanted him to be ok so I told him to get his sh!t together if he ever wanted you to come back, if I left someone and came back to them acting like him, I said I'd move on and never think twice about it. Just like you would and he came at me for it. I didn't know what to do, I didn't want to hurt him, but I needed to protect myself." I said softly.

"Baby I understand that...you don't need to explain anything"

A: "You ok?"

K: "We'll..."

B: "Yeah, I'm fine." I smiled brightly at him.

A: I looked at him. He seemed a little comfortable at the moment with me. "I can't hurt you, if anything I should be nervous." I said and looked away.

E: I nodded. "Yeah, I haven't really recovered from it either."

"It's ok...mom is here now"

K: "You can hurt me. Through Emerald"

A: I smile back and hug her

B: I hugged him back and we went to the nearest pizza restaurant.

A: "Not like I'm really trying now..........." I said, dam, every time I did something people hang on to it and act like I meant to do it. I figured everyone knew I wasn't the smartest, or even the most controlled guy. I blew up, and this time I took it too far. I didn't see a reason why Em would give back my wolf.

E: I hugged her again. I could finally let everything out, even though Kaname was there he wasn't what I wanted. He couldn't help me the way I needed.

A: I grab us a pizza

K: "I know...it's jut..this is the first time I've seen hr smile in awhile"

"How re you and Kaname?"

B: I wait for him at a table. I stared absently out the window while my hand rubbed my belly.

A: "I know........she didn't smile much before, but I guess I took her ability to smile........" I said. I started to think about how I've been lately, I'm sure all my kids hate me now.

E: "We've made no progress. I don't want us to really do anything because one kiss can lead to more definitely right now. I think I'd try anything to feel better and I didn't want our first time to be because I didn't want to hurt anymore." I said softly. "And he doesn't want us engaged until I'm better."

A: "Back babies" I set the pizza down

K: "You made a mistake."

"Are you better baby? And are you happy?"

B: I smiled at him. "It smells really good." I said and got myself a plate so I could start eating.

A: "I hurt her beyond any hurt a parent could do. I can't even explain what happened, but I'm glad she got the kids taken away too." I said. They were better off with Darius.

E: "With Kaname I am happy, but I haven't shown it. I heard you were home and felt a little better but it's still a long climb back up." I said.

A: I grabbed a piece

K: "Go talk to her"

"It's ok baby depression runs in the family"

B: Once I had mine I began to eat, but watched my pace because the babies would get sick.

A: "She couldn't say hi to me I doubt she really wants to speak to me and I don't blame her." I said staring at the floor.

E: I nodded. "I know. But normally the depression isn't caused by something that happened. This comes from my wolf, she can't understand why her own dad attacked her, and when she talked to him he looked at her with a frightened expression like he didn't know her." I said.

A: I watch while eating

K: "Try"

"I think you should talk to your father"

B: I felt his eyes but said nothing. He had kept me waiting too long and I was starving now. It's never fun with babies to be so hungry.

A: I looked at the door where she was.

E: "I think we need more time. I don't know what to say to him, and it's not me that needs to talk. My wolf, Rayne, needs to. She wants her dad, his wolf. She won't talk much to me right now like we use to." I said, and I missed it. The conversation were always interesting between us.

"Nope you're having the conversation now"

A: "Hungry I see"

K: "Talk to her"

B: "Very." I said and looked at him. "You kept me waiting." I said with a playful mad face.

A: I went out the door to them.

E: I looked at him. I wasn't the one that was going to talk. "Dad, I think our wolves should talk. Not us, yet." I said, he just nodded. I went to him and released his wolf who immediately showed. I looked down at the wolf then changed myself and we went off to run together.

A: "I'm sorry love there was a young girl up front like 5 and she was trying to steal pizza so I bought her some, she said she lives in an orphanage"

I watch them leave

B: "Omg, that's ok!" I said.

A: Our wolves talked about what happened. They found a place to stop and they talked. During that time we talked too, and it felt normal almost.

A: I chuckle, "You sure?"

I rest a hand on my stomach

B: "Of course!" I said.

A: We came back an hour later and shifted. We still felt awkward with each other but you could tell we were more at ease.

"How did I go you two?"

A: I smile, "Ok"

B: I nodded and continued to eat. As I ate my mind was dragged to some other place so I was no longer paying attention.

E: "It's a start. She feels better." I looked at my dad.

K: "How do you feel though, human wise"

A: I eat

B: I became even more exhausted as we sat there. Something was draining me and it wasn't good.

E: I looked at him. "I feel much better." I smiled at him sweetly.

A: "Belle you look tired"

K: "That the truth?"

B: I nodded. "I kept feeling drained." I said.

E: "It is." I nodded at him.