My long forgotten thread of poem like stuff.

I gotta love the hate in your face.
The way you scowl and never smile.
But I see you hate me.
Oh that is so sad.
Since I am in love with you.
But yet you hate me.
So I am alone with nothing.
But I still love the hate in your face.
And how you always scowl and never smile.
For you are my love and life.
But I am only a pest to you.
Now good bye forever for I cannot stand the rejection.

You see my face and thier faces.
Do we look alike?
To you yes.
But in the mirror you see my differences.
I do not have my father's eyes, for mine are lighter and ringed in fire.
My skin is not my mother's for mine is darker.
His hair is not mine.
We are not alike inside or out.
I wish my my real true family to show with the adoption pappers.
For I have grown tired of my fake one.
So where is my family?
My true and real family.
To match my dark skin, light brown highlighted hair, and hazel eyes in a circle of fire.
I wait for the night, where I am set freen from this family.
For they are not mine, and I wish to go home.
To my real true family.

You say you loved us.
The you left for a life of no family.
You take name of father.
But give nothing.
You took my money for school.
I hate you know.
I am leaving.
Ask me if I want to talk or eat.
I will say no, for you destroyed the family.
Hidden and hated.
Whole you party and claim your love.
Even your own mother knows your fake lies.
So leave me now!
You are a waste.
We are taking our money.
And leaving for good.
I hope to never see you again.
Unless it is in jail.
Goodbye.

Say your hate.
I do not care.
Because you do not know the real me.
So why be rude?
You don't know why.
So shut your mouth.
And listen here and hard.
For you do not know me.

Protected by Hate.
Hidden by Love.
Killed by Envy.
Taken Temperance.
All this I am and more,
But you never see the truth behind my eyes.
For I keep it there till I forget.
Now leave before my Hate envades.
Before Love kills.
Before Envy saves.
And after I die.

Left here in the land of the dead.
No one lives,
I am alone.
My heart hurts,
and I am torn.
Between disappearing or living.
There is no one to care,
and no one to see.
So why live at all?

I hate you.
And I love everyone else.
Or is it the other way?
I am not sure.
My mind is lost.
My hopes and dreams.
Gone.
Just like that.
Drowning.
In hate and lies.
I am lost.
And near death again.
Were you to help or kill?
Tell me now,
before I die.
So I can tell you the truth and not lie agian.
To stop sinning every day.
To not hurt myself again.
So tell me.
So I won't drown.
Because I'm drowning in lies.

Look at me.
What do you see?
A girl with perfect everything?
Or the me you don't know?

You see a bubbly girl with everything.
But what am I truly?
I am a girl.
A girl who has never been perfect.
Not even close.

Nothing is good from me.
Not even this.
You say I'm not that.
But look into my eyes.
See the pain? The lies?

I lost who I am.
To all these silly lies.
So you believe every lie now.

I lie to family.
To friends.
To stangers.
Even to myself.

I am far from perfect as the others.
Much like them inside.
But here, be me and you'll see.
See that what and who I am is a disgrace.

People would look and stare,
If I was me.
Do you get why I lie?
To fit in with those I hate.

But I am getting tired.
I wish to be me and with others my kind.
If only there were more here,
And not over there.

So I lie,
Hide and,
Die inside.
Just to live that perfect life you think I have.

We talk.
We joke.
Best of friends.
Then she comes and ruins it all.
You go off and leave me alone.
Like all the others before.
I've stopped laughing.
But your still smiling.
I see your hands all over her.
I miss you.
Maybe even loved you.
But now thats all gone cause of her.
You never stick to one,
Move on so fast.
New week new girl.
I was the longest,
6 months and done.
You broke my heart.
Now I break yours.
Karma may be a b**ch.
But sweetie,
I'm your worst nightmare.
So you better watch out.
Cause I'll find your dirty secrets,
And tell them to all.

All these people surrond me.
Who are they?
Only mere stangers.
Thay talk as they know me.
Yet I do not know them.
They claim to be mother, father and brother.
What else?
Where is my real family.
The ones like me who are real?
Broken down and quiet.
Just like they wanted.
But now I want to be loud,
And rebel against all odds.
Are you with me?
Or against me pick now,
do you want to be free?
Of lies and hate and horror.
Or be stuck in this world that is so fake,
You tell me,
But I want out now!
I shall rebel with or with out you!
I'll be me and true!
Loud and insane.
Not the perfect girl anymore am I daddy?
Do I care?
No!
This is me and I am happy.
So begone forever.

Do you know what I am?
Very few know but I will tell.
I am a lover.
I care and love for most.
I love my friends.
Family sadly not.
I am a hater.
I talk back,
I'm a rude girl.
Very few really like me,
I am unloved by most.
I am broken.
I have been broken down,
to a mere quiet depressed girl.
From the loud happy child,
whom was loved by all and loved all.
I am a liar.
I lie to all,
even self.
I lost who I was,
and now am unsure of self.
To see those happy puts me in more pain.
But now at least,
you know a small part of me,
a part I am sure of.

I Hate It When

I hate it when.
Someone says a nice thing,
And you find its a lie.
That hurts yes,
They say to suck it up.
And I do,
Put a smile on everyday,
No matter what you say.
But I hate it most when,
I've been nice and fair.
Then you come and say to my face,
''I don't even feel sorry for such an ugly creature.
No wonder all your 'friends' hate you.''
Con't you have sensiblity and see?
That what you say kills me inside,
Everyday you make me want to die.
I never did wrong.
Never took too long.
So I hate it when,
You make me want to die.
Cause thats when all I need is love,
And there is no love for me.

What and Who?

What's to be hated.
Who's to be loved.
I do not know.
I am unsure.
You must know love.
As I know hate.
Different yet the same,
Far from the other.
Yet close to self.

Sisters
You said that word.
A very funny word to the right mind.
You don't understand while I laugh.
Now you know what it means,
And I laugh more because of your reaction.
Yet we bond closer,
While my life is torn apart.
You give me a shed of happiness along with others.
But I love you.
More than my own brother.
We're like sisters.
Your like so many others,
We all hate our fathers.
So lets get together and party.