Lost Love Notes

"Think about your answer before saying it"

I nuzzle his neck trying to calm down

N: I nodded. I didn't have one for her so I put my head down to show I was done talking. I was tired as I felt the lingering anger at dad drift away.
A: I put my arm around her.

"Lets get you home...Nice talking to you guys again"

I nod, "Thank you guys"

N: "See you later." I said as I got up and started leaving.
A: "See you guys." I watched them go.

"She wants to take the baby if its an Alpha and raise it as an Alpha."

"What was that about?"

N: "Our disagreement. When I was born I was taken from my mother and father to be trained, they died before I came home. I offered to teach theirs and she got angry." I said.
A: "I know, but it she's the one who has it then wouldn't that be better than someone else we barely know?"

"We won't ever see our baby!"

"You gotta remember though she's just worried about not seeing her first child"

N: "I know, but Itold her she could have it. I never went home, heard my mother or father's voice. I was giving her a chance to do that, to give it memories of them." I said sadly.
A: I kissed her forehead. "We'll figure it out."

"But she is right about one thing. She will barely get to see the baby and it takes time for the child to get to know its parents. Its just that maternal instinct that kicks in"

I nod, "I know"

N: "Yeah, see this is the kind of thing that I hate. I know what it's like not to know your family, I don't want to take the child but I thought if I did then they'd still get to see it." I said annd looked at the ground. "I hate being an alpha, all these decisions are painful." I whispered.
A: I rubbed her arm as her food came.

"Maybe you guys can compromise"

"Thank you"

N: I shook my head. "If we knew how we would be true friends." I said.
A: I smiled. "Eat."

"Why not teach the baby together?"

"I'm not really hungry anymore"

N: "Because only alpha can." I said. Iwanted to just drop it, Ididn't want to talk about it right now. I opened the door to my house and started going upstairs.
A: "We'll take it home then." I said and the waitresswent to get a box.

I sigh and follow

I sigh but nod

N: I go to my room and lay down on the bed.
A: We paid and left to go home.

"I don't know what to do."

"What else is bugging you?"

N: "I just told you about my parents, they died before I got to come home do you really need to ask?" I asked, I kept my tone light back it cracked and I sighed.
A: "We'll figure something out." I said.

"Tell me what happened"

I nod

N:"I just did. The alphas took me for training after I was born, and the year before I went home they died in a car crash." I said.
A: When we got home I made her lay down after putting the food away.

"I'm fine Aaron"

I hug her to me

N: I hug him back while trying to hold back my tears.
A: "You need to rest." I said.

"I'm not tired"

"Cry baby"

N: I nodded and did. This is th first time anyone held me when I cried, because I'd never cried for anyone before.
A: "Well I think you need to rest." I argued.

I hold her tightly against me

I pout, "Why"