Lost Love Notes

"What if you die Aaron?"

A: I drive home

B: "Dear god"

K: I start crying with her

B: I sit quietly.
A: "I don't know, but I don't want you to get hurt because I chose to live with it. Or the kids."
N: "I never thought he would have something like that."
E: I think I felt a little better that he cried too, at least he cared.

A: I park and take a deep breath

I nod

B: "He doesn't deserve this"

K: "Baby?"

B: I looked at him. "Are you ok?" I touched his arm.
A: "No matter what though, I'll still be here." I said. "If I die I'll just come back and haunt the house."
N: "He doesnt."
E: "Hm?"

A: I shake my head no

"You swear?"

B: I put my head in my hands

K: "I'm sorry"

B: I hugged him. I didn't know what to do. I felt so bad because he seemed to know how to make me feel better about being pregnant, but I couldn't help him with this.
A: "I do. If not I will kick Satan's @ss for taking me into hell." I said.
N: I hugged him.
E: "Don't apologize, it's not your fault."

A: I hug him back

I laugh sadly

B: I hug her back

K: "I'm still sorry"

B: "It'll be ok. You're dad is strong, he'll fight this like he fights everything else." I said hoping he'd find it funny.
A: I smiled. "At least I can make you laugh."
N: "We'll pray."
E: I nodded.

A: " he does fight a lot doesn't he"

"You always make me laugh"

B: "to the goddess"

K: "Let's get inside"

B: "Yeah, and sometimes he's funny when he fights. He never knows how to choose them."
A: "I want to keep making you laugh."
N: "Exactly."
E: "Alright.' I got out of the car and we headed in the house.

A: I chuckle, "he never really does"

"Than survive tomorrow besides 8 kids isn't enough"

B: "He'll make it through"

K: I hold her as we walk

B: "You know this will be the one that he knows he needs to fight."
A: I smiled. "I will win the fight."
N: "He will, he's been fighting so much, he's prepared."
E: I hold onto him and once inside and sitting on the couch I lean into him.

A: "If he doesn't mom won't be happy"

"You better or I'll track you down"

B: I nod

K: I hold her to me

B: "I know she won't, and you know you can come to me if you need to if something happens. I don't want to give an example of what situation, I'm sure you know." I said.
A: "I'm going to be rotting in hell while you fly with angels if that happens."
N: I smiled. "Now we need to get our kids up."
E: I stay curled in his arms.

A: I nod

"No you'll be an angel too"

B: "Nooooo"

K: "I love you"

B: "Come on, we need to go in before I catch a cold." I said and shivered when I realized I hadn't brought a jacket.
A: "Doubt it."
N: "Well what would you rather do then?"
E: "I love you too."

A: I nod and we run inside

"I don't"

B: "have fun"

K: "You better"

B: Once inside I was still a little cold so I cuddled to his side. I smiled at Em and Kaname. "Hey guys."
A: "Alright, I think we have a visitor. Looks like Em successfully got Alec to come, and he got Belle."
N: "What kind?"
E: "I think I should be the one saying that, I'm the one in need here." Then I smiled at Belle and Alec. "Hey guys."

K: "Hello there"

I nod and go in there acting like the best host I could

B: "Any kind"

B: I looked at Roza. "Hello ma'am." I greeted with a soft smile. "And sir."
A: I smiled at Belle as I came down behind her. "Hello Belle."
N: "Why not family fun? Other than Belle. She is needed elsewhere."
E: I stayed where I was rather than move like we usually did.

"You guys need anything?"

K: "No thank you"

B: "I like it"

B: "No thanks." I said.
A: I put my arms around her waist.
N: "Then we have to get the kids."
E: "I'm good mom."

I stare at them, "Oh...ok...I'm not needed"

K: "Roza its not that"

B: "Alright lets wake the troublemakers up"

B: "It's definitely not that. I'll probably be hungry soon anyways. You know." I said and suddenly got nervous. I had a problem with speaking because I tended to get scared in big groups, but usually if it's people I don't know. I just felt nervous speaking about the babies.
A: I kiss her cheek. "They don't want anything right now, don't worry about it babe."
N: I smiled and went to get the kids.
E: "You know I usually need you for something mom."

"I just need to do something to distract myself"

B: I wait

K: I hug Emerald, "It's ok Belle you can talk about being pregnant"